His life has not been easy and he has been the root of a lot of heartache in my own childhood. I have distanced myself emotionally for most of my adult life for that reason.
He suffered with MS and in the last two months his health declined rapidly with strokes and cancer. The whole family has been close and supportive. My mom, older brother and I got to be there for his last breaths and it felt special. Dad and I had a few nice conversations beforehand and that felt nice.
This has been a wonderfully selfish year for me, all in the name of turning 40. Turning 40 (not until November) has coincided with my kids moving out of the baby phase and into a fabulous new era.
The baby times were special. Exhausting and a sacrifice. We made sure each child felt fully attached and safe by co-sleeping, extended nursing, positive parenting, etc. Especially important in the first three years…times that by four and that makes for 12 long years of sleep deprivation. By the fourth, I really started to fall apart physically from the exhaustion.
But we made it! All four kids have made it through toddlerhood and are the nicest little people. Our relationships are strong! From the four year old up to the 14 year old, life is tranquil and full of love. Success!
Now that the kids are all sleeping in their own beds and realitively independent, Jason and I are enjoying full nights of sleep and rediscovering our own interests.
Thus, the Yellowstone bike tour. I took my first solovacation in 14 years! The idea of an active vacation appealed to me and it did not disappoint. A lot of the women on the bike tour (through womantours.com) had done multiple tours and there is no surprise as to why. It was fantastic and addictive. I want to do another one!
It would have been nice for me and Jason to both do a tour together but childcare for the four kids was stressing me out. As I said, selfish year for Zoë!
On to the bike tour photos. I actually lost my phone on day three of the eight day tour and only have the few photos I had added to lnstagram. A few photos were acquired from the other ladies, but not many.
Testing out a post from my phone with a glut of food pics.
For personal amusement and curiosity, I took photos of the kids’ food for a day. Simon and Lotus still aren’t friends with vegetables but aren’t exactly living on just cereal and bread with Nutella…but close. 😉
Simon says, “Soup for dinner and the cereal is gone? I’m not hungry.”
My little garden harvest so far…
PS posting from the phone is not easy, but an option. Yay for travel blogging!
Our little dog friend, Luke, had his sleepy time medicine today and we are sad but it went really well.
Lots of snuggles this morning…
15.5 years my little buddy.
After my early morning bike ride, I picked the wild blackberries on the trail and took them home to make pie ahead of time.
The euthanasia was done at home with the whole family gathered around close on the living room floor. Then we took his body out into the backyard for the burial. We plan on placing a nice grave marker over the spot later.
Everyone had a piece of pie to celebrate his life and that was that. The kids are sad but I think having them involved in every step of the process helped a lot. We’ll miss you, buddy!
Time to clear some of the photos on my phone. It’s sad the camera stays home now, but phone cameras are getting better and better.
We’ve added some hooks to get the guitars up on the wall and this spot has become a nice music “room.”
Xander has taken to guitar amazingly well and it is quickly becoming a passion. He gravitates to it first thing in the morning and practices multiple times a day. He also figured out how to play the same songs on the piano. Woot!
I’ve signed up for a bike tour in Yellowstone and Grand Teton National Parks in September. It’s going to be eight glorious days of vacation for me, myself and I…and all the other ladies on the tour. I will have my own hotel room each night, I’ll get great cycling exercise and I’ll get to see Yellowstone for the first time. I am stoked!
The longest cycling day is 50 miles and the most I’ve ridden is 30, so I have a bit of training to do. I’m supposed to do two shorter rides and one longer ride per week, building up in time. Xander and Simon joined me for an 11 mile ride. I love seeing my little guys ride…
We tried out disc golf for the first time. It was a lot of fun!
Mom wanted a mother-daughter selfie at the restaurant. Birthday breakfast for my mama! Ugh, my hair. I am so close to cutting it.
Our little guy, Luke, has had a rough few days and we are hoping he can pull through it but preparing just in case. He’s been our little shadow and part of the family through most of my 20s and all of my 30s. It will be a huge loss.
I grabbed one of his puppy photos and paired it with one from today. He sure was a cute little ewok!